OMG I'm feeling so hungover.

So, I had a major breakdown last night, I felt so fat and gross I just started crying at my daughters party. I didn't make the best decisions and I know that that isn't going to help but this blog really is helping me be aware of the shitty decisions I make. So I'm going to be officially ringing in the new year with a fucking head on my shoulders. Short post I know, I just need to get in the habit of writing at least once a day so that I can remember to be fully aware. I DID however start partying something crazy lol which was fun because I was worried I wouldn't have fun if I didn't drink, but I can't drink because I'm still breastfeeding my officially one year old daughter. I'm like tipping over I'm so tired.