The Start Of My Worrisome Journey

So, just in time for the New Year I've decided that I'm sick of my body. It's affecting my relationship with my husband, my self image. I'm just sick of it. So I'm hoping that being conscious of a blog to follow and forcing myself to post something every day I'll be more aware of decisions that I make in regards to my weight loss.

I'm setting my sights pretty high, which I know is a bad idea, but I figure at the very least I'll push myself. I'm just kind of worried about my muscles clocking out for life ha ha! I'm going to be doing the 30 day abs challenge, as well as doing a 30 day program using the UFC trainer game for the PlayStation move and I'll be practicing clean eating. I'll be posting monthly pictures until I reach my goal weight. Which I think is 180 right now. I'll probably want to get down to 165 once I reach 180. As long as I'm under 200 I think I'll be okay.
 
It's kind of hard to be on top of exercising because I'm working full time, and I'm in school full time and I have a 1 year old daughter that is like harvesting the energy of 1000 suns she's so damn energetic. I've been recently considering cosmetic surgery but am trying to go the way that is definitely better for my budget. So, here are some before and after pictures, showing what I don't want to look like anymore. I'm 5' 7'' and currently weigh about 225 lbs.